Our little place in the world.

Sometimes I wish so badly for things to JUST HAPPEN ALREADY

that when they do

I’m lost.

I have no idea where we go from here…

From anywhere really.

We bought our first home this week and everything is flying at me at 100 millions miles an hour and now all I can think is

SLOW DOWN!

CAN’T EVERYTHING JUST SLOW DOWN?

I’m trying to take it all in…

Enjoy the ride.

I’m trying.

I’m failing.

But I’m trying.

I’m.

Trying.

The floor is falling,

The clouds are whizzing by,

The air around me is warm and sweet and spring like.

And all I keep thinking is

SLOW DOWN WORLD!

These are the moments I want to write on my soul and tell my grandchildren about, I want to someday sit by a crackling fire, with my coffee, and REMEMBER what it was like.

I want to remember the excitement I feel in the pit of my stomach and the giggles I get when I think of vaccuming the carpet IN MY HOUSE and I want to remember the smile on my husbands face-

WE MADE IT, I heard his heart say.

WE MADE IT AND FINALLY HAVE OUR OWN LITTLE PLACE IN THE WORLD.

I want to remember it all.

Closer.

It’s all getting a bit more real!

You tell yourself it’s not…

but it is.

Your the kinda girl that keeps things close…

afraid they will fly away if you set them free or talk about it.

So for now your almost silent.

Almost.

Just wishing and hoping.

Crossing fingers and toes and anything else that you can cross for luck…

Thanking GOD that your husband has more strength than you

and can hold his shit together far better.

The

sun is shining

the state…

the people…

you.

It’s warm all over.

All over!

Everything.

It will be the best day ever.

I can feel it.

xo